"Why do you ask ? I love you"
"But I doubt you,"
"What do you dispute?"
I was silent, hands gently grasping my hand. His gaze made me unable to shed tears, I love viewing it, viewing the very first time he expressed his love to me.
"You do not believe me?"
"Not that, but ..."
"But what?"
"But you often do not care, do not ever think I am, you do not mind me, I never care what I do, you never know what I do, what I feel and what I want, what is the name honey? Have you changed, you have not as before! "
Posted emotions can not be controlled again, tears dripping more rapid, he stood silently. may be a bit surprised to hear my explanation.
"Why are you so quiet? Do you not love me any more to?
"You ok first calm,"
He did not say anything, she pulled my body and left leaning on his shoulder an open space, I felt the irregular heartbeat.
I was bored, and I am really boring. My contact with him felt very dull and ordinary-the-mill. At the start it I feel very happy. because he is a man who is perfect for me. he is mature, caring, understanding, loyal and always made me smile. He never got angry at me. but he never forbade me to mix with anyone. I was comfortable, because he does not limit me in making friends.
but 10 months passed all still like that, but I think his attitude became more indifferent, and as yet no matter what I do. I began to doubt in his attitude, even more so he can last three months did not contact me.
That night I could not sleep, the puzzling question filled my heart, why you just keep quiet, why do you not answer? What right do you I do not love me anymore?
I woke up that morning because the sun infiltrated into my room through the open window. my eyes are still swollen, I cried last night to sleep. remembered again yesterday, but I can not cry anymore. probably because my eyes are dryed of the water drops fallen.
One day,
I received a short message that morning, I was still lying on the bed, my cell phone bags on the table near my bed.
"Dear,,,"
"until this moment I do still love you.It is possible for you to think that I do not think of you. but you know, I always think of you, all the time. before going to bed, wake up I always remember you, I never forgot you dear.
Perhaps I was too quiet and did not care about you, that's what you feel, but you know?
I always take the time to know what you did out there, with whom and where you go. because I fear for you. But I want you to learn. I want you be successful. I do not want you to be in default because of me. Your father sent you there to study. What they think is right for you, dear. Here I can only pray, hope you are happy and successful there. I know you must understand where our boundary limits. I just believe and trust in you, my darling ... "
Suddenly tears dripping rapidly, again. I gathered enough strength to read the next message.
"From the beginning I wanted a serious relationship with you, I know I am not perfect, but I want to give my best for you, I want to see you always smiling. trying to comfort your heart and make you feel comfortable with me, you're so meaningful to me. You are my hope.
Until the end of time this feeling will never change, I will always love you. I will never changed to keep the commitment to live happily with you later.
you thought I did not want to entertain you, but .... I do not mean like that. Now, you're still letting me to be here by your side and as your companion to accompany you? "
my hand shivered, the overflowing tears dripping, immediately I replied to his message.
"You, I am sorry, I never thought all this. I want you to be with me ",
"can you open the door for me?"without long thought, I ran to open the door, I saw a man with a smile who had made me fall in love. with a spray of red roses in his hands.
I hugged him directly, I realized that it was love.
"I love you ... ...."... I said
p/s : Sweet right!! but this is just a made up story in my mind.. :)
I wished that guy was him T-T.....
Okay, I am being emotional again~
Enjoy~~~
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